have another session with doc today
she said everything is still the same...no changes including my weight *sob*
no wonder i look so fat in those pics...how i wish i can re-wind the whole thing again so i wont able to appear in the pics and video *sigh*
trice is sick of hearing me sighing...but i cant help it...just think of the unglam photos and memories just flow back...feeling so heavy too
BIG *sigh*
the angel, please take good care of urself in Xining...
this isnt a good sign
but i love sitting on top of the star with the angel..looking at him
we have nearer our distance each time...this time is way too near that i cant believe it myself
